Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Last day!

Wow Day 28, last day of the soul pancake challenge for myself..
I have been saving this one for the last day cuz i thought it would be a fun and good way to end!
SO page 57 Pop your problems
step 1. buy a bag of balloons
step 2. write something that makes you angry on each balloon
step 3. blow up the balloons. catch your breath
step 4. find something sharp and start stabbing. feel the release with every bang

 I totally made a video for this one! So check it out Pop your problems!

Well i guess this is it for now guys
<3 Amz

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Day 27!

Wow almost done!!!

Todays question is from page 101 Why are we obsessed with talking about other people?
I think everyone is insecure in their own ways and talking about other people lets us feel better about ourselves. i think its that plain and simple. Sucks but true.

it never leads to anything good, yet people still do it. It hurts when people talk about you behind your back but that doesnt stop people from talking about others behind their back.

Well those are my thoughts.
<3 Amz

Monday, January 28, 2013

Day 26!!

Only 3 days left!!
So today im answering a question that Soul Pancake had posted on facebook, i follow them on facebook and twitter :) When is vulnerability healthy?

This is one that strikes home with me a lot. I am very much an open book, wear my heart on my sleeve kind of gal which people tend to look at as being vulnerable but i avoid situations that would make me vulnerable. So im my head being open leads to being vulnerable but they are not the same thing.

 I think being vulnerable is a good quality, you get to experience new things and usually the outcome is beneficial. Although if your being taken advantage of or being over exposed then i think thats as bad thing.

Recently i made myself vulnerable by allowing myself to get close to a guy and we started dating and what not. It has been an amazing experience so far.  In fact this weekend he told me he loved me :) He made himself vulnerable and put himself out there. I also have made myself vulnerable by saying it back to him. So as you can see taking chances leads to wonderful things

<3 Amz

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Day 23, 24 and 25

Hey guys, So i haven't blogged for 3 days now :( im sorry. Friday was hectic and then I had to take a friend to the doctors that night and my mind completely forgot about it, and then saturday im not sure why i forgot, so today i will be catching up for all the days! I am sorry to all my followers :(

Okay so Friday day 23 im going to answer page 9. What is the interplay between fate and free will? Fate in my mind is predetermined,  where free will is what you can decide to do.  They are interlocked because whats already predetermined(fate) limits the choices you have(free will) And depending on what choices you make(free will) it will affect the outcome of your life and therefore will predetermine some aspects of your life.   So in a way they are very similar yet still completely different, if that makes any sense haha

Saturday Day 24 of the soul pancake challenge im going to answer page 30, What's the line between inspiration and imitation? Any object can inspire you at any given moment, how you interpret it is what decides if you imitate it or not. I also feel like sometimes an object will inspire and then when you go to create your art-piece. in any shape way or form, you may think your creating a whole new masterpiece but parts will be similar. So i personally think you cant have one without the other.

Now for todays! Day 25! page 50, How to know when to call it quits and when to forge ahead? I feel like this is different for everyone person, As everyone can handle different stresses and different amounts. When i give up its because i honestly cant handle it anymore. So either Its too much work, stress, and/or the rewards or benefits are not outweighing the cons. If its a big decision i also tend to talk to someone about it before making the final decision as i tend to overthink things in my head and talking it out with a good friend usually puts a different perspective on it and will help me make a well rounded choice :)

Well hope everyone had a great weekend! I know i did :)
<3 Amz

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Day 22!!

Well day 22 of my Soul Pancake Challenge! These past three weeks have flew by...

Today i tackled page 38-39. The black-out poet.
step 1.grab a marker. a black one. dont sniff it.
 step 2. find a single sheet of newspaper or tear a page from your favorite magazine. even a book you wish you'd never read.
step 3. black out what doesnt belong. chisel away a word at a time until you reveal your poetic masterpiece.

Well this is what i did. twice. and it was actually harder than i expected it to be.


youth at trouble for years. have little experience. get trouble involved. dont sign contract.
(this is referring to me buying my car.. i bought it almost 5 years ago now and im still paying for it and will have paid triple for what it was worth when i originally got it)

The next one says Saskatoon is as home. That clear battle of large undecided outcome.

Well thats all for today! 
<3 Amz

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Okay trying this whole video thing again but in a way different way!
So i uploaded it onto youtube, my Video ! Check it out for my answer to page 99 Carefully list 5 things you would literally chop off your little toe for.

<3 Amz

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Day 20

Today im tackling the question that made me have to soul pancake challenge. When Katie answered this question in a video i burst into tears, i was speechless. Katies video! She is so open and displays raw emotion. Re-watching the video now still brings tears to my eyes.

So now for me to answer that question.. page 49 Whats the biggest mistake you've ever made?
Mine is being a coward and not standing up for myself. I live within the limitations others put on me. I used to care so much about other people that i never knew who i was. In the past few years i have done alot of soul searching and growing as an individual. So now its time to learn the delicate balance of standing up for myself without being a B*tch

 <3 Amz

Monday, January 21, 2013

Day 19

Monday! Today is my staff christmas party :)
So im in the party mood! Im going to answer Why is music so powerful? on page 36
Music is also a creative outlet for the Artist, so its full of emotions. I find certain music will help me relax while others pump me up!

So music can transform your boring monday afternoon to a dance party in your socks!
<3 Amz

Day 18

Sunday Funday! todays question is page 25, What is the purpose of art? I think art is a creative outlet for both the creator and audience.


For the artist, its a way to release emotions and show how they are feeling. It can also be a way just to take a break from everyday life. Everyone has an outlet but depending on the individual it will be different.

Art is also interpreted differenty from each individual.It makes you think and is also just pretty to have :)

<3 Amz

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Day 17

Over halfway done!

Todays Quest is answering pg 15. What drains your soul? What recharges it?
I think in order to answer this question we need to define soul. 

soul  

/sōl/
Noun
  1. The spiritual or immaterial part of a human being or animal, regarded as immortal.
  2. A person's moral or emotional nature or sense of identity.
     
So What makes you feel not like yourself and makes you feel more intuned to your being is how im taking the question.

As weird as this is going to sound i feel like if im constantly on the go and surrounded by people i go a little crazy, i need my alone time to just sit and not do anything. Which is why i usually come home from work and have a bath. Its quiet, im alone with just my thoughts and i can just relax.

I use to be able to use baking as a way to recharge, although now that its my career it doesnt have the same effect on me. Although when i bake at home it does still give me a calming sense of relief. 

Now im off to bake at home!
<3 Amz

16th day of my Soul Pancake Challenge

Well today is friday! And that means its finally Date Night!! Ive been looking forward to this all week :)

Today im going to tackle page 169. How are you harming the planet?
I was actually talking about this with my co worker today! I have realized that since moving back to Saskatchewan i have got lazy with recycling. Im actually excited for our city to be distributing blue bins! So Yes currently we recycle cans and paper at my house but lots of the stuff that goes in the garbage could be recycled. Also at work we dont recycle very well. We have a big bin that were are to throw all the recyclables in but really its only used for cardboard.  Also i drive to work, without carpooling.  Plus their is prob ways im harming it and not even realizing it :(

If everyone made a small difference imagine how much change their would be..
<3 Amz

Thursday, January 17, 2013

Day 15

Well its thursday, pretty uneventful day today minus the fact i was thinking it should have been friday. oh well only one more day of work!!

So todays question is a little different from the rest of the questions ive done so far, its from page 187, Would you want to know the exact moment you are going to die? i would love to know! I would call all the people who mean a lot to me and let them know how much i love them and how they have impacted my life, i would also know if i should be paying off my debt or not, and if not then i would be doing so many things that right now im holding back on. Yes it would be scary knowing oh im going to die tomorrow but there is also a bit of peace if you knew as there would be no anticapation leading up to it.

The worst would be if you knew but couldnt tell anyone. What if we lived in a world where each person knew how long they would live but couldnt know how long any one else would live... that would suck..

anyways!
<3 Amz

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Day 14!

Halfway done. Seems a bit odd that i have been doing this for two weeks. it doesnt seem like its been that long.

Today im going to answer pg 74-75, Why do so many marriages fail? I have never really experienced a good healthy marriage. At least not as often as i hope i would have so far in my life. I feel like people now a days rush in too quickly and give up too easily. Now i will agree that if its an abusive one that you need to get out! Other than that i feel like marraige should be forever. People are very selfish and they dont want to put someone else above them. Or they live in this fantasy world and when things arent sunshine and roses all the time they say F*** it and give up. No one is going to get along 24/7 365 days of the year for the rest of your life.. but if you have choosen this partner and committed to them then they deserve you to take a breathe, calm your Sh*t and figure out how to work through things. Although now a days people tend to avoid confrontation and put blame on something/someone else.

Im not saying divorce makes you a bad person. Or that you should have stayed in your marraige. I dont know everyones circumstances or what has happened to them in the past. But For me personally when i finally say "I Do" it will be a big deal! Cuz that poor man will have to prove himself to me time and time again before i will say that lol But then they will know it means forever!!

<3 Amz

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Day 13

So i actually tried my last resort of making a video, my webcam that is 1 megapixel lol it records fine but wont save properly. So i wont be able to do any videos :( sorry guys!

Todays question is on page 76, Does your family see the real you?
I am going to say yes. Although im a little more reserved around them. I feel like you have to be more respectable around your grandma then you would be around your roommate/friends. But im still dorky and weird around them.
 one of the dig deeper questions regarding this is do you ever stop caring about what your parents think of you? up till this point in my life i will say no. Any big decision ive made in my life i have always thought of my moms reaction and also how it affects her. Moving to B.C. was a hard decision. Especially cuz it was two provinces away and i wouldnt have alot of spare time to talk to family but in the end it was for the best!

Hope everyones day was good
<3 Amz

Monday, January 14, 2013

Day 12 :)

Hey guys so i had planned on trying to make you guys a video again. But i layed in bed to read for a bit and the next thing i know im waking up 3 hours later!

so for todays question comes from page 125, Do you have to experience doubt before you can reach certainity?

i had to think about this answer for awhile. So i think yes. Even if its just a thought that goes by within seconds you still question yourself which means there was a bit of doubt.

I think if you havent experienced any doubt then you arent committed to it 100%

Well those are my thoughts!
<3 Amz


Sunday, January 13, 2013

Day 10 & 11

So I suck at posting on Saturday's! Today I will be answering two questions.
first question is page 72, hot for humility list five non-physical traits that turn you on.
1. Sense of humor. If a guy can make me laugh or put a smile on my face :)
2. Openness. someone willing to be open and talk about themselves and their past without having to nag or question them and them not being ashamed or afraid.
3. Security. Getting a sense of security just by being around someone is an amazing feeling.
4. Confidence. Everyone has faults but not caring what others think is hot.
5.Their hobbies. What people do in Their spare time tells you a lot about Their character.

Now for the second question!
What do you do to find calm in a chaotic world?
I personally love cleaning the house then sitting down and reading a good book. It let's my mind escape from reality for a bit and I find it extremely relaxing :)

Hope everyone's weekend was good!!
<3 Amz

Friday, January 11, 2013

DAY 9!!

Hey guys so another day! And its Friday!!! Today I'm answering pg 81, can men and women really be 'just friends'?
I'm going to have to say yes and no. Sometime during the friendship at least one will think about what it would be like to be more.Although once you get past a certain stage then I feel like both will know that a relationship wouldn't work and then you are just friends.

So yes guys and girls can be just friends but not until they realize why they couldn't date. Sorry for the short post! Hope I explained it well enough
<3 Amz

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Day 8!!

Day 8! Cant believe its been over a week. I know i had wanted to do this for awhile and just kept putting it off and then finally started one day. the start of something is always the hardest i find.
Well today i am going answering pg 166, How do our minds affect our health?
i know physically im affected when my mind isnt clear. I have excema and when im stressed and my mind is constantly going it flairs up.
i personally also believe that alot of things is mind over matter. If you start thinking that your throat is sore, eventually you will trick yourself into coughing and swallowing lots which irritates it and actually makes it sore!
One way i have noticed to help ease my mind is having things clean and tidy. If their is no clutter around then my mind tends to focus more and relax which helps my body relax.
Hope everyones week is going well! only one more day of work till the weekend!!
<3 Amz

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Day 7!!

Got home tonight and was just about to get ready for bed when i realized i hadnt done this today! So im attempting to answer this even though my mind is half asleep haha

I also hadnt picked a question out so i flipped through the book and randomly stoppped at page 157 cuz it has a green background haha yes this is how my mind is working right now
It asks What can technology never replace?

first thing that pops in my head is emotion and feelings. Robots can be programmed to think and react to different situations but it can never experience the light headiness and butterflies you get when you see that certain someone smile and wink at you or a gnite text that is so cute you cant help but fall asleep smiling. Im happy im not a robot. I am me.

<3 Amz

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Day 6 : Soul Pancake Challenge

Well day 6 is here, today im going to tackle How do thoughts affect Reality? from pg 11 in the book. This one has me thinking a lot. May be over analyzing my answer but here goes..

If you are constanly living in a dream world then you miss out on the life around you. Also if you are constantly thinking negative thoughts then you appear to others as a negative person which affects how they interact with you.

So i believe thoughts are the key to everything. If you can wrap your mind around trying to see the positive and good in everything then eventually thats what you automatically see without even thinking about it.

Last year i started trying to think positive and to see something good in everyone and i truly beleive it has helped me feel brighter on the inside if that makes sense  :)

<3 Amz

Monday, January 7, 2013

Hey Guys! So today i have been trying to make a video for you guys, as im going to try and do one video a week but after over an hour and 3 devices later im calling it quits for today, and ill try and figure out another way to do it.

The question i will be answering is from page 63, What one eye-opening experience should every person have?

I believe with my whole heart that every person needs to move to a city they dont know, with no one or at least with not very many people they know and live there for a couple of months.

I recently did this myself. I moved to Vancouver for culinary school. I will admit that it was the hardest thing i have ever done. But i survived and it was also the most rewarding thing i have ever done!

I feel like it just teaches you so much about yourself.

Would love to hear your experience of doing this or your answer to this question! Feel free to comment :)
<3 Amz

Sunday, January 6, 2013

So i totally didnt get a chance to do the soul pancake challenge yesterday as i was barely home! So today i will be doing two to make up for it!!

Yesterdays i will do the one on page 35. What paralyzes your creativity? What fuels it?
The first thing that comes to my mind when i think of trying to answer this question is a quote from john lennon

“There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create. Evolution and all hopes for a better world rest in the fearlessness and open-hearted vision of people who embrace life.” 

 So i feel like if you are feeling loved and encouraged then your creativity will flow freely, but if you are constantly living in fear and worrying you wont be able to show your true self 

 

 

Now for todays challenge! This question comes from page 55. What emotion do you wish you could better control?  
i wish i could control all my emotions better but i know that i should dig deeper and evaluate so.. 

i will say that i wish i could control my sadness better. Some times i feel myself feeling sad because im sad which makes me sadder. And if someone says something negative i automatically take it to heart which i know is bad. I feel like if i could control how i react to sadness it would improve my life.

Well thats my answers for now! I promise i will answer tomorrow!
<3 Amz 
 

 

 

 

Friday, January 4, 2013

Hey guys so day 2 of my SoulPancakeChallenge!


Today i am doing the question on page 47, it asks whats one thing you learnt that blew your mind?

This is a tough one!  I am constantly learning something new everyday, and i find with different challenges that you face in life will teach you different aspects of life.

But the one thing that i learnt that blew my mind the most is  how much people care and/or dont care. I have some friends who i would consider to be family and i know they would do anything for me. but i also have some firends who i used to be really close who now i dont even talk to. So yeah i would say this blows my mind.

Well im off to a movie date!
<3 Amz

Thursday, January 3, 2013

Hey Everyone!!


So obviously i have lacked on updating you on my baking life lately! Working at the same job i came back to Saskatchewan for, and havent really done any testing at home.

Recently i was introduced to Soul Pancake by a friend and ever since the beginning of her challenge i had always wanted to do it myself but never had the chance to go get the book. Then another friend got me the book for my birthday/christmas so i guess its my turn to do this! Here is the link to the friend who introduced me to  it! http://krsalmers.tumblr.com/post/27383889279/fuck-this-i-want-a-challenge

The rules she set up for hereself were:
1) Answer a new SoulPancake question 7 days a week.
2) One of those answers must be a video, which will always be filmed on Tuesdays. (i will say one has to be a video but not that it has to be a tuesday!)
3) One of those answers must be me asking someone else in a video.(this seems interesting.. who will i get to be in a video? i think ill keep this one also!)



 And staying close to her SoulPancakeChallenge i also used the random number thing to see how long i will be doing it so Starting today January 3 2012 and ending January 30 2012


So my first question! i decided to pick the date of my birthday so pg 19 in the book says

Tell me now!
List five questions you hate not having the asnwers to. 
1. When someone says hey i have something i want to talk/ask you about and then leaves you hanging. Bugs the hell out of me!!
2. The whole time travelling thing confuses my head. If the future gives the present an object that they grow up with and it has importance in their life and then they grow up and then time travel back and give it to themself how does that object exist?
3. Why do i put up walls?
4. Why cant i get my excema to heal and go away?
5.  Why cant i seem to learn from mistakes the first time i make them?

Well first day done! Talk to you guys tomorrow!!
<3 Amz